Broken

Friday, March 31, 2023

My kid’s had a shit week.

Between breaking down over her dad on Monday, seeing her dying step-mom on Tuesday, and the crap that went down today… my kiddo needs a vacation.

They had their first regular season softball game today. Her dad actually showed up… AND SHE DIDN’T PLAY ONE INNING. To make matters worse, they got annihilated. I have a feeling it’s going to be a rough season.

To add insult to injury, her and her boyfriend broke up. This break-up is different. This was her first serious relationship. Her first love. And she’s absolutely broken. She warned me it was probably going to happen when we were on our way home. I knew the moment it was over. I was downstairs, with my noise canceling headphones on, and I could hear her wails. I literally threw off my headphones and ran upstairs to her room, only to see her curled up in a ball on her bedroom floor crying like I’ve never seen her cry before. It was gut wrenching. I held her for 45 minutes and she cried in pure heartbreaking agony. I stroked her hair, rocked her, told her that it would be okay, a while imagining the ways I could hurt that boy and also trying not to cry along with her.

This was never in any of the parenting books.