Doom & gloom

Tuesday, May 2, 2023

Just when I think it’s all doom and gloom…

I’ve been super stressed. It’s all boiled down to finances. I hate money. I love having it. It’s a complicated relationship. I had to get a short term loan from the parents to ensure my bills were paid yesterday. I’ve been trying to calculate how I’m going to get by for the next month. Then I checked my mail. Turns out my former employer included me in the yearly bonus from last year, minus the 5 months I wasn’t with them. I’m getting the check on Thursday. While it’s not a whole lot, it is just enough to pay back the parents, and maybe help me get back on the right track.

Then, at work, I got an email of my yearly merit increase. It also wasn’t much, as it was prorated since I was only with them for the last 5 months of 2022, I still left work with a glimmer of hope. If it wasn’t for the torrential downpour I had to drive through on the way home, I’d think maybe my luck was changing.

I’m not holding my breath.