Christmas… cheer?

Saturday, December 10, 2022

Why did I agree to this?

It stormed all morning. Like, bad. Heavy rain, strong winds… somehow, my Christmas decorations survived. Still dizzy, it dawned on me that I agreed to go to some cookie thing tonight… WHY???? I’ll tell you why. Amanda. We have silent agreement to force the other to socialize. So when she asked a couple weeks ago, I agreed. Dammit.

Our daughters babysat for a friend of Amanda, and we arrived (purposely late) to someone’s house. The ONLY person I knew was Amanda. We sat in her car, in front of this house, for about 10 minutes just psyching ourselves up to go in. We made an “escape” pact. 30 to 45 minutes, tops, then we’re gone. I stood awkwardly beside Amanda the entire time. I barely spoke. I just kept looking at my watch. It felt like forever.

I didn’t have much time when I got home. I was feeling slightly festive, albeit with a depleted social meter. I decided on a small mandala on a piece of wood. It’s kinda cute. I still need to erase my pencil marks, though.

Okay, I need to sleep now.