Despair

Monday, November 28, 2022

I am in a dark, dark place and I’m getting desperate to escape.

I went into the office today and decorated for Christmas. My department is a winter wonderland. You’d think that would lift my spirits. It did, for a time… but it’s like the second I left, my depression said “Hey! Don’t forget me!” Rat bastard.

When I sat down to paint this evening, I worked with my pallet knives and angrily applied paint. I’m not sure what inspired the light stripe, maybe it’s my hope or my wish for happiness.

I don’t know.