Advice

Saturday, August 12, 2023

Good advice can be hard to hear.

Amanda and I had our Saturday coffee, farmer’s market, crafty shopping day. We made it back to our Starbucks meeting spot around 1pm. Then sat in my car for the next 4 hours talking. It started out fine, talking about our town, how we think this state (and this country) is too big. Then somehow the talk found it’s way to relationships and futures.

I have to be 100% honest here… I’m terrified of what my life is going to look like in 2 years, after my daughter leaves for college. How am I going to take it? How will my relationships, specifically with the boyfriend, be affected by it? Will I grasp on to what is comfortable or will I itch to get out? I have no idea. I don’t really remember what life was like before I had my kiddo, I was young, but not too young, almost 25 when I had her. Still, life is extremely different for a woman in her twenties versus in her forties. Life experience is huge, especially when it comes to wisdom and maturity. As we sat in my car, I listened to her advice, largely taken from her own life’s experience. I know that going off of my past wouldn’t be the best.

Oh, and on a side note, I successfully indoctrinated her husband into the Sleep Token worshipping. He’s also super jealous that I’m going to see them at Aftershock. I seriously cannot wait!

I have a lot to ponder.