Imposter

Saturday, June 10, 2023

Imposter syndrome: the condition of feeling anxious and not experiencing success internally, despite being high-performing in external, objective ways. This condition often results in people feeling like “a fraud” or “a phony” and doubting their abilities. (What Is Imposter Syndrome? Learn What It Is and 10 Ways to Cope, Saymeh, Amal, MBA, CPCC, PCC, BCC)

Seriously, the definition should just have my face beside it. There is nothing more frightening to me than to watch people look at my arts and crafts for sale, then keep walking away. It’s like a punch to the gut, every time. I need a salesperson because I really can’t handle this. All day I sat at my little booth, all set up and pretty, in my parents’ backyard as I watched people coming in to buy my grandma’s fabric, and not really giving me a second glance. It wouldn’t be that bad if my daughter hadn’t fallen asleep on my parents’ couch and left me to deal with this alone.

If no one buys anything this weekend, I’m not sure what I’ll do.