Reflection

Wednesday, November 30, 2022

I don’t recognize myself when I look in the mirror.

I feel like I’m losing myself. I have a hard time looking into the mirror in the mornings… well, anytime really. I’ve gained weight again… a LOT of weight. I’ve given up for the year. I am going to indulge until January 1st and then, to be a cliché, restart my weight loss resolution. I have until my solo art exhibition in September to get back into my old clothes. Until then, I’ll just avoid the mirror.

Being angry at my own reflection, I shattered a mirror. Don’t worry, it was on purpose and I did it safely outside and took precautions. Then I glued the broken pieces onto the canvas. Took my blues, blacks, and silver and attempted a paint pour. Had I been thinking, I would’ve added the mirror pieces AFTER, but what is done is done.

I didn’t like the edges, so I added some modeling paste, painted the paste teal, and still wasn’t happy. Then I decided that I don’t like things easy, and added purple leafing. That was a pain in the ass to put on and clean up. But, I am happy with the results.