Farther away

Friday, June 2, 2023

Sometimes, I feel like we’re just roommates.

In the decade that the boyfriend and I have been together, I’ve never felt particularly close with his children. For the most part, not one person is really to blame, it’s been all of us. I’m not really a fan of children. I don’t have the patience for them. The boyfriend has not made it a priority to encourage a relationship from his children. The sad part it, I could see a scenario where his son and I would really get a long. He’s a lot like both his dad and myself. A lot of the same interests and even the same personality. In the beginning, he pushed away on purpose. He admitted that he was hoping for a future where his parents got back together. After his mom got married, he just never bothered. There are more words in a Dr. Seuss book than there are words that he’s spoken to me in ten years.

The boyfriend’s son is graduating from high school today, and I will not be there. Why? Because there were not enough tickets for my and my daughter. I hope that his family understands that instead of thinking that I don’t want to be there because we’re not really close, but, it is what it is.

I will admit, I feel like an outsider in my boyfriend’s life sometimes.