Grasping

Monday, July 17, 2023

I’m trying to grasp onto reality.

It’s no secret that I live in my head. However, somethings the line between the Wonderland that is my brain and reality, is blurry. I’ll have conversations with people in my head, trying to prep, anticipate, workout what I think our next interaction may be, and later, I can’t remember if the conversation actually happened or it was just in my mind. Same thing with events. I also know that I compartmentalize to keep my sanity. I know that it’s not healthy, and sometimes my tendencies get me in trouble, but at this point, it is what it is.

I’ve lived in my own world for 41 years, and I’m comfortable here.