Avoidance

Thursday, April 20, 2023

Avoidance won’t make the problem go away, but I sure do try.

I’ve always had a habit of ignoring problems instead of tackling them. I don’t like conflict. I don’t like attention. I don’t like drama. I don’t like the possibility of losing my temper because my temper is a bitch. Instead, I avoid the situation. Although, I do think about it constantly. I know logically, if I address the problem, there will be a result, good or bad, but and ending nonetheless and one less thing to stress about. Again, I know that. That doesn’t change my avoidance. I avoid everything. Big things like financial issues to little things like cleaning off my night stand. They all fester in my mind, but I do nothing about them.

Currently, I’m avoiding talking to the boyfriend about a big issue that has been on my mind for the last few months. It’s an uncomfortable conversation. I’m avoiding it at all costs. I know that I need to speak to him, but I keep hoping that if I stare at him long enough, he’ll be able to read my mind. Unfortunately, telepathy is not one of his talents.

No wonder I have a headache.