Conflicted

Wednesday, October 5, 2022

I gotta be honest, I don’t like this one. My step-mom, however, LOVES it. So, it’s hers now.

I’ve been working on this painting for a few days. It’s taken that long because this the largest I’ve attempted for one of these journal painting, thus far. It was daunting. It looks like chaos, because that’s what it is. Every time I sat down to work on it, I felt a different emotion, which I poured into it. I started out with just smooshed green, then decided to smooth it out. Then I added white and black lines, but didn't like them, so I smoothed those down. Then I didn’t like that, so I added a few white squiggle lines. Then green and gold leafing. Then I didn’t like that, so I added more white squiggle lines. Then it looked too plain, so I added green shadows. Then it just looked a mess, so I added some yellow flowery things.

I hate it. But it’s in my parents house now. I only have to look at it when I’m over there.