Lost

Tuesday, November 8, 2022

Do you remember that line in ‘Beetlejuice’ when Lydia is writing her "goodbye” letter saying, “I am alone. I am utterly alone.”? That’s how I feel.

I know it’s strange so say you’re alone when you live with significant other, his children, and your own child. But I do feel alone. And a bit lost. Alone in my head. Alone with feelings. Alone with my struggles.

When I started this painting, I was just a teal gradient. Light at the top to black at the bottom. I just stared at it. Then I began to see a forest in my mind’s eye. A misty forest when I’m standing alone on a path, not knowing where it leads.

It’s not my usual abstract, but it perfectly conveys how I feel at this moment.